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mermaid

what do I say in the middle of the night to a friend who normally does the comforting?  what do I say on the couch drinking tea Lu in my lap so happy that I'm awake petting her head soothing the leftover Halloween angst?

what do I say to the mermaid girl full of laughter and light when the dream is over the fantasy of perfect and everlasting love? 

what do I say?  

I say it's hard it's awful you're sad and he's sad.  There is no good and right way to do this there is only what we wish we were strong enough to do.  I say I know, I know.  I say I lost all of my friends from that time in my life except you.  I lost all my friends because I couldn't find a good and right way to do it either.  I was awful to him he was awful to me. 

what do I say? 

I say you took my middle of the night phone calls and listened to me generously without judgement just love for me the heart of me. 

I say call any time.

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